These are the things i’ve done over my life.
I both hate myself, and accept what i am at the same time.
I’m a blind pedophile, and I’ve enjoyed the feel of children’s flesh, and the sound of their voices.
I think i was 14 when it started, i have a little cousin we’ll call sunny, she was young, and at the time, my vision was good, and i remember tricking her into showing her pussy, and by god, i can still see it, even after 12 years later, bald, smooth, and small, all i wanted to do was tough it, but i didn’t, possibly cause i didn’t want her to say anything, or something, I’m still not sure, but i was stupid.
When i was 16 i was at a friend’s house, and his little sister, grace, was a horny little thing. I was able to rub her off on the trampoline in the backyard, and god, were her moans beutiful.
When i was 21 i briefly got a feel for a girl named lesa, but she quikly ran and ignored me that day, thankfully she didn’t say anything to the dad.
When i was 23, i online dated a 17 year old, though she had told me she was 18 when i met her, only revealing her age 4 months into our relationship. I was able to get her to realise her pedophilic side to herself, but after 7 months of online sex and romantic talks, she broke up with me, mostly due to her not wanting me to suffer with her mental issues she had going on, i miss her sometimes, and we really loved each other. Now I’m going to be 26 in a few days,, and so far I’ve grabbed an 11 year old’s ass, had a 13 year old finger herself on Omegle, and listened to verious vids on wickr.
And through all of it, after each one, i want to kill myself, the only reason i haven’t is due to my fear on what awaits me after death, and the fact i can find a healthy outlet in places like this and ao3, where we can be ourselves.
I just wanted to get this off my chest.