My maternal instincts turned in to sexual ones and now I can’t stop drugging and raping my step-daughter.
5 years ago I married my girlfriend, we met as work colleagues, dated for a few months, we instantly fell in love, it was a whirlwind romance and we knew instantly that we wanted to be together.
She had a daughter from a previous relationship, Laura, she was 7 when I became her step-dad, we got on really well and forgetting the fact that she’s not biologically mine, I do think of her as being my own daughter.
Fast forward 5 years, Laura is now 12, and I’ve been doing really bad things to her.
For almost a year now my instincts towards her have become muddled, instead of the maternal, parental instincts I used to feel for her, my sexual instincts started to kick in instead.
For 5 years I nurtured her and watched her grow, she’s such a lovely young girl, always polite, very well behaved, takes care of herself and pride in her appearance, she smells gorgeous all the time, of fruits and flowers, I brush her hair every night and we cuddle on the sofa together.
As she’s grown and blossomed, every time I’m near her or hear her sweet innocent voice, I have sexual thoughts about her, even when I’m in bed with her mother, I think about Laura while we make love.
She quickly became a sexual obsession, I tried to distance myself from her as much as I could without letting on that anything was wrong or that I didn’t love her, I do love, I love her so much, she is and will always be my daughter but I can’t stop having these thoughts about her.
It came to a head one weekend when my wife went away for the weekend to a work conference, Laura and I were alone and she wanted to spend the whole weekend with me instead of going out with her friends, she was around me all the time, hardly ever leaving my side, and I struggled badly, many times throughout the first day we were together, I wanted to jump on her and make love to her, but I fought the urge and stopped myself from doing it.
On the second day she got me to take her to the water park, and seeing her in her skimpy white bikini, seeing her nipples through her wet bikini top, the crotch of her bikini bottoms sunk in to the crack of her pussy, it pushed me over the edge, any control I previous had, was now well and truly out the window.
On the way home I stopped at a pharmacy and I bought sleeping medicine, with only one thing in mind.
That night, after treating her to her favourite stuff crust pizza, I poured half the bottle of sleeping medicine in to her cola, she got drowsy quickly and fell asleep, I gave the medicine more time to do its work until I was sure she was properly out of it, I nudged and nipped her and she didn’t react, I knew she was ready.
I picked her up off the sofa and placed her in the chair, then I pulled out the sofa bed before picker her up again and laying her on top of it.
I removed her trainers and socks, then her crop top and her skater skirt, I then delicately removed her training bra and panties and I finally had her naked, but I had second thoughts, I stood up and looked at her laying there naked on the sofa bed, she was so beautiful and so innocent, a war between good and evil thoughts was raging in my mind.
I raced off in to the kitchen and hit my fists on the counter tops and pulling at my hair in frustration, the bad side of my brain was telling me to get my ass back in there and have my way with her, the good side of my brain was telling me to stop what I was doing and just put her to bed, the bad side eventually won out and I headed back in to the front room.
Laying on my side next to her I began to molest and abuse her little body with my hands, my lips and my tongue, her skin tasted like strawberry candy, with a slight aftertaste of chlorine from the water park, and her pussy was the sweetest I’d ever tasted.
I pushed my cock between her pussy lips, they were as soft as rose petals, the tip of my cock had a battle of strength with her virgin barrier, I won, and it gave way, allowing me to slide my cock in to her body, when I slowly pulled back, my cock had her virgin blood on it.
I made love to her slowly with her pussy keeping a tight grip around my cock, and I had my hands under her back holding her, but I held her loosely as her body reacted and moved around, I wanted her to be comfortable, she gasped and moaned unconsciously, her nipples got hard and her pussy started to get squishy with a foam like substance forming at her entrance.
Because I was making love to her and not simply fucking her like some sex crazed teenage boy would, it lasted for what felt like an eternity, in reality it was more like half an hour, I enjoyed it, it was everything I had imagined it would be.
Suddenly her body convulsed and she moved around wildly, lifting her legs in to the air and stretching her arms out above her head, she arched her back and moaned out loud, she had an orgasm and water began to gush from her pussy every time I thrust my cock inside.
Her pussy became very sloppy, so I pulled my cock out for a moment, allowing her orgasmic fluids to flow out of her, then I pushed it back and continued for 10 minutes more minutes until I finally reached my orgasm and I ejaculated hard.
I laid on the sofa bed with her for about an hour afterwards, just to be close to her, then I carried her up to her room, put her in to her pyjamas and tucked her in to her nice warm bed, she looked like a sleeping angel.
In the morning I crushed up one of her mother’s birth control pills in to her cereal, the last thing I wanted was for her to get pregnant.
She did come and speak to me in the morning, she was concerned after finding blood in her bed, it was her who suggested she probably started her period, so I just went along with that and bought her some tampons from the store.
To this day whenever we’re alone at night, I drug her and have sex with her, I’m addicted to doing it now, I can’t stop myself.
I think maybe I should go speak to someone, but there is no one I can talk too, I can’t just walk up a friend and say, “I’m raping my step-daughter and want to talk about it.”
I don’t know why I feel this way towards Laura, I really wish I didn’t, I just can’t stop having sexual feelings for her.