Hi y’all I am a 15 year old girl now, when I was 11 I was sexually abused by my friend’s dad (who was a trusted family friend). I’ll explain a little about what happened so you know where my need to be raped originated from. I was staying the night at a friends house, we ended up falling asleep on the couch watching a movie. He waited until my friend and I were asleep before touching me. I woke up when he pulled aside my panties, I froze and pretended to sleep hoping he’d stop. He continued and licked his fingered before brutally fingering my little virgin pussy. I was scared, panicked and struggled to get up. Luckily, I was able to get away before he raped me. I think because I started talking and he was scared to wake my friend up (she was on the other side of the couch).
About a year later I developed a strong desire to be raped. I really want to be raped by an older man, but I don’t know how to get someone to rape me. I cut ties with the friend after the incident where her dad touched me. So he’s out of the question. I’m going crazy wanting and needing this. So my question now is…How can I find someone who A. Is okay with fucking a 15 year old and B. will finger and rape me. I don’t want to get in trouble.
Long story short: I realized that there is nothing I desire more than to get my kitty raped. Preferably by an older man.