I was raped when I had just turned 11 years old. I didn’t have sex again for awhile. But, I have noticed I like to be taken by force and I like being used. I like being easy for men to fuck. I don’t know why except that, I was raped and had no say about it. I was over powered and he was also much older than I was.So, there’s the dominance factor. I think I felt some good feelings being raped. I mean, after the pain stopped I liked the touching and feelings that I had during the rape.
Are you allowed to enjoy the sex if you’re being raped? I think I felt guilty because, I did like part of it. Actually, I would have liked all of it if it wasn’t for the initial pain of breaking my hymen.
I remember I became very promiscuous and I used to play up to and tease men hoping they would want to fuck me or force me. I would be on a date and I felt like, I shouldn’t give in when the boy would try to fuck me. But, I liked it, when he slipped his hand under my blouse or tried to undo my blouse. I liked it, when he would unhook my bra and suck on my titties. I liked it, when he would pull my panties off and leave my skirt on. Then, all he had to do was slip his dick in my pussy. I loved it when they said, “You’re so easy to fuck and I like that.”
I would hear my girlfriends talk about fighting guys off, when they were on a date and I thought, “Don’t you guys ever want a dick in you, don’t you want to have sex?” I couldn’t understand it an, it would make me feel horrible about me because, I did. As I got older, I didn’t care about what they thought an I quit telling my girlfriends any of my sexual experiences.
I would dress a little provocatively, showing off my titties when I could. I always wore short skirts or mini skirts. I always wore a skirt or dress on a date. It was easier to have sex with just a skirt or dress to raise up. I know the guys loved it, as they would reach under my dress and pull my panties to the side to finger me or pull them off to fuck me. I usually knew I would end up having sex when I went out.
My parents divorced and my step dad was always looking and trying to touch me. He did it in a kinda of accidental way. He would hug me and just happen to rub my titties on his chest or he would walk into my room with out knocking, knowing, I just got out of the shower. He caught me naked several times like that. When we were alone together, he would talk about my body, saying how big my titties were for my age and he knew why the boys liked me. He said, “I’d beat your door down to get a chance to fuck you, if I was your age.” He ask me about what the boys were doing to me when I went out on dates. If they made me play with their dicks or more. It’s like he knew I was fucking them. I ended up telling him I fucked many of them and he said, “It drives me nuts thinking you’re out getting fucked when, I’d like to fuck you myself.”
I know he would get a hard on talking to me like that cause, I could see it sticking up through his pants. When mom was gone, he would walk around in his boxer shorts with his hard on out there, for me to see.
It used to tickle me. Because, after awhile, I started really teasing him. I would walk around half naked when I was dressing and he could see me. Or, I would bend over in front if him with a mini skirt on. One time I was laying in my bedroom floor stretching and doing some exercises naked. I was sitting with my legs spread far apart, touching my hand to my toes. He walked in my room without knocking and just stood there looking at my pussy. I acted like I didn’t see him for a minute or so. Then, I jumped and said, “Oh, I’m sorry.” He kept looking and said, “Don’t be sorry, I guess I should have knocked.” But, he didn’t leave until I got up and found a towel to cover up with. I thought, serves you right. Sometimes, I kinda wished I had let him fuck me, after I saw how big his dick was poking through those boxer shorts. As horny as he was for me, I’m surprised he didn’t rape me, the way I teased him.
I guess the bottom line is, I liked it when men desired me. I liked it a lot.
I started fucking when I had just turned 13 after I was raped. That’s when it really started. After I started I never stopped. I was having a lot of sex. First, with a neighbor of mine who was older then, I fucked guys I went to school with but, they were always juniors or seniors. I wanted men sized dicks, not preteen ones.
I never dated guys my age, they were always older. Who knows, maybe I was looking for daddy in every man I went with. I heard daughters of divorced parents have daddy issues.
Daddy never had sex with me but, he touched me quite often. He’d rub my titties and say, “You’re getting them titties, ain’t cha baby?” Or, he would see me naked and rub my pussy and say, “I love those little naked pussy’s.” If he ever spanked me, he would pull my panties down spank me then, rub my butt and he always, slid his hand down and rub my pussy and squeeze it. Then, he pulled my panties up, patted me on the butt and said, “Now, go behave yourself because, your my girl.” I loved my daddy.
When I was a sophomore I had a math teacher who was really after me. I think I was just one of many for him. He probably chased many 15 year olds. This was back before all the forbidden sex comments and acts against women came out. Men used to do many things to us girls several years ago.
He used to touch me and try to get me to meet him after school. He would have me go to the storage closet to get supplies then, he’d come in and feel me up, squeezing my titties and rubbing my pussy. One day, he actually put his hand in my panties and stuck two fingers in me before, I pushed him away. It wasn’t that I didn’t want him to do it, it was I didn’t want to get caught. If no one had been around, I’m sure I would have let him finger me. It excited me and felt good.
He flat out told me, I made his dick hard every time I walked in his classroom. He had my desk right in front of him. He was always looking up my skirt. I thought it was funny how horny he was so, I would spread my legs so he could see good. He told me one day he saw a wet spot on my panties and he wanted to soak them for me. I wasn’t sure if he was gonna make me cum to soak them or, if his cum was gonna soak them. Anyway, I had the most fun in math class.
When I was 17, I worked at this little neighborhood cafe and my boss was an animal. He was such a whore dog. I was one of two waitresses. I got to work earlier one day by accident. I forgot to set my clock forward for the time change. So, I was an hour early. My boss was there. I went to the bathroom and he walked in right behind me and locked the door.
I said, “Jack, what are yoh doing?” He said, “What I’m always wanting to do.” He came up behind me grabbed me with one arm around my waist and pulled me up against him. He lifted my skirt and jerked my panties down. I’m trying to reach for them but, he pulls his dick out and sticks it in my pussy. Now, he was only about 6 maybe 7 inches long but, he had one of the fattest dicks I had fucked up to that point in my life. He had to cram it in before, he started fucking me. I had to spread my legs far apart so, it would go in. When he started fucking me I loved it and he made me cum right away, with that fat thing.
He fucked me fast and hard.
After that I fucked him often. I liked that dick. He started making me stay to help him close so, he would take me in his office and fuck me a couple of times before I went home. He wasn’t married at the time. I think the other girl used to close with him so, I’m sure he fucked her too.
All in all, I like sex, I still do. I don’t think that’ll ever change for me.